07:06 AM
I woke early this morning. A sound in the apartment (maybe). A woman just making some basic utterance. An acknowledgment of something. It was eerie and coming at the tail of a dream. A dream where I was trying to lead a group of people in a road trip sing-a-long. I kicked things off with Elvis Presley’s When My Baby Left Me. I was unsuccessful. People in the car looked more embarrassed than enthused. It took me several minutes to shake the eeriness of the noise in the apartment (maybe). It could have come from the street. The bedroom window was open an inch. Several minutes of cogitating the sound and I began to realize an urgency rising. I needed to go to the bathroom. And confront the strange woman in the apartment (maybe).
10:00 PM
Today, I sat in a meeting and wondered what I was doing there. I was invited and gladly attended. The meeting represented a change of pace, new knowledge, and potential change in horizons. But it underscored how much I still don’t know and how much I will need to learn to become a useful tool somewhere else. It also made me wonder if all the effort I am putting into my RHEL SysAdmin PowerShell studies will amount to anything other than more unused knowledge in my head.
I guess I keep trying to contribute and see who takes notice of the effort. Also, I need to be my own champion.
